i’d go home from college riding my bike and wondering what i did wrong.

i feel like it’s supposed to be a love song, but to me it has always been somewhat melancholic through it’s melody and the context i’ve created for it.

now that i’m grown and living my own life, i’ve taken the time to listen to music i never explored before. this band stood out to me first because of the masks, but the songs on their first album were exactly what i needed at that moment in my life.

they provided a way to channel stress and express hatred towards people who actually deserve it, instead of the “always forgive everything” mentality i experienced growing up.

i now think that feeling hatred or disliking someone isn’t objectively wrong. of course, it’s not about having unjustified hate for everyone, it’s just that sometimes you can allow yourself to dislike people and/or their actions.

this was the first song i wanted to learn on drums, and i actually did learn it. to me, it’s symbolic that with enough practice, i can learn any song. i also really enjoy the main riff.

i saw them live earlier this year, and they were all very chill, it was a great time. i’m not interested in going to these types of venues anymore, but it was an interesting experience for sure.

this song is one of the first i listened to when discovering metalcore, and it stood out with its many different melodies that are all very good, and the drumming that’s quite intense yet fun to listen to and practice. i’m not quick enough to play it yet, but it’d be a dream to be able to play it perfectly.

i wonder if some people never got to experience how marvelous that part is simply because they weren’t interested in what leads up to it, and that also makes me wonder how many beautiful parts of songs i never listened to because i skipped them too early.

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in multiplayer games, packets are like the envelopes or messages that carry information between players’ devices and the game server. they ensure that actions like moving your character, shooting, or chatting are synchronized across all players in real-time. without packets, online gaming would be impossible—everyone would be playing in their own isolated world.

imagine you’re playing a team-based game with friends:

• server: the central hub that knows everything happening in the game world.
• clients: each player’s device, sending updates to the server and receiving updates from others.
• packets: the data bundles that travel over the internet, containing things like “player x moved to position (10, 20)” or “player y fired a bullet.”

packets make sure everyone sees the same game state, even with network delays or losses. but if packets get lost or arrive out of order, it can cause glitches like rubber-banding or desyncs.

how packets work in practice

packets are sent using network protocols, mainly tcp and udp:

• tcp (transmission control protocol): reliable but slower. it guarantees packets arrive in order and retransmits lost ones. used for important data like login info or inventory changes.
• udp (user datagram protocol): fast but unreliable. packets might get lost, but no waiting for retransmission. used for real-time actions like movement updates.

in games, a mix is often used. for example, movement might use udp for speed, while chat messages use tcp for reliability.

simple packet example (conceptual, not actual code):

1// imagine sending a position update
2let position_packet = Packet {
3    player_id: 1,
4    x: 100.0,
5    y: 200.0,
6    timestamp: get_current_time(),
7};
8send_to_server(position_packet);

on the server, it processes and broadcasts to other players:

1// server receives and relays
2if let Ok(packet) = receive_from_client() {
3    broadcast_to_all_clients(packet);
4}

why packet handling matters

poor packet management can ruin the experience:

• latency (ping): time for a packet to go to the server and back. high latency causes delays in actions.
• packet loss: some packets don’t arrive. games interpolate missing data to smooth it out.
• jitter: inconsistent delays. causes stuttering.
• security: packets can be spoofed or tampered with, so games use encryption and validation.

these issues are why games have “netcode” – the system handling network communication. good netcode predicts movements and corrects errors to keep the game fair and fun.

extras

dead reckoning: predicting player positions based on last known data to hide latency. like assuming a car keeps moving straight until new info arrives.

rollback netcode: rewinding time to correct mistakes from lost packets, used in fighting games for precise timing.

borrow in rust is a way to use a value without taking ownership of it. instead of moving a value from one place to another, you can “borrow” it using references. this helps rust ensure memory safety without needing a garbage collector.

imagine you and a friend share a laptop with a draft document:

• owner: you own the laptop and the sole editable copy of the draft.
• immutable borrow (viewing): you give your friend a read-only copy or open the file in “view only” mode — multiple friends can view the draft at the same time, nobody can change it.
• mutable borrow (editing): you hand the laptop to one friend or grant exclusive edit access — that friend can modify the draft, but while they have edit access you (and others) cannot edit it.
• lifetimes: the borrow lasts while the friend has the laptop or edit session; when they finish and return it, you regain full access.

the result: many memory errors are caught before the program runs, so code is safer without needing a garbage collector.

how it works in practice

• immutable borrow (reading): you borrow only to read. in rust this is &.
• mutable borrow (changing): you borrow to modify. in rust this is &mut.

immutable borrow:

1let laptop = String::from("draft document"); // you own the laptop with the draft
2let viewer1 = &laptop; // friend1 opens in "view only" mode
3let viewer2 = &laptop; // friend2 also views at the same time
4println!("{}", viewer1);
5println!("{}", viewer2);

mutable borrow:

1let mut laptop = vec!["intro".to_string(), "body".to_string()]; // owner of the document parts
2let editor = &mut laptop; // one friend gets exclusive edit access
3editor.push("conclusion".to_string()); // friend edits the document
4println!("{:?}", editor);

more abstract &mut example showing immediate update and scope:

1let mut laptop = String::from("raft v1"); // owner
2{
3    let editor = &mut laptop; // exclusive edit session starts
4    editor.push_str(" — updated"); // changes happen immediately on the laptop
5    println!("{}", editor); // prints "draft v1 — updated"
6} // editor goes out of scope here
7println!("{}", laptop); // prints "draft v1 — updated" — owner can access again

example that will not compile:

1let mut laptop = String::from("draft v1");
2let editor = &mut laptop;
3// println!("{}", laptop); // error: cannot borrow `laptop` as immutable while `editor` (a mutable borrow) exists

why these rules exist

these rules prevent common mistakes like using something that was already removed or modifying something at the same time (which can cause unexpected behavior). they help rust guarantee memory safety at compile time.

memory safety means a program can’t read or write memory it shouldn’t. this prevents common bugs like:

• use-after-free: reading data after it was dropped

  • can cause undefined behavior: crashes, corrupted memory, or wrong values
  • security risk: may allow attackers to execute code or disclose sensitive data
  • typically timing-dependent and hard to reproduce, making bugs elusive

• double-free: freeing the same memory twice

  • leads to heap/allocator corruption and undefined behavior, often crashing the program
  • can corrupt allocator metadata so future allocations return invalid pointers
  • a common vector for exploitation (control-flow hijack or arbitrary code execution)

• data races: two threads changing the same data at once

  • causes nondeterministic behavior, lost updates, and inconsistent reads (corrupted state)
    • can produce crashes, deadlocks, or subtle logic errors that are hard to reproduce
    • may break program invariants and create security issues when sensitive data is involved

extras

garbage collector: a garbage collector (gc) is a runtime component that automatically detects and reclaims memory a program no longer uses, so developers don’t have to manually free memory. this simplifies development but adds runtime overhead, potential pause times, and less predictable performance. rust instead provides deterministic, compile-time memory safety via ownership, borrowing, and lifetimes, dropping values at well-defined points without a gc.